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Cake day: July 2nd, 2023

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  • Yeah, I was a defense contractor. I grew up periodically wondering if this was finally the deployment my dad wouldn’t come home from, and getting the chance to work in radar jamming to keep american aviators alive felt like a dream come true at first.

    I am afraid to try to change the world again. I already know that I have the capability to change things in the world, I spent plenty of time doing it. I also know that I developed my values and morality while being raised as a white supremacist, and that I am gullible enough to be misled into doing evil. I dont remotely trust my own judgement on what would make the world a better place, and I trust anybody telling me what I should do even less. I’ve already had to see and smell the consequences of trusting other people who justify violence to me.


  • Appreciate it, but I stopped looking a long time ago. I was raised in a military family to be an attack dog for fascists, and i realized that everybody i ever looked up to or trusted would rather support fascism than accept even a mote of discomfort in their personal lives. I dont trust another soul in the world and honestly im not sure i have the capacity to; ive only ever experienced cynical monsters of human beings vying for dominance, and I got extremely good at that game. If there even is anything worth living for in this faustian existence, the weight of my sins is such that I don’t deserve to experience it


  • A weird combination of electric, radar, computer, and hardware test. I used to do technique development and operational testing for radar jamming equipment on a strategic bomber for the airforce. I tried going back to school for a bit, but I learned that academia is run by pathetic cowards who can and will build weapons for fascists in exchange for funding. I came to the conclusion that the only thing I was changing was how likely I was to have to see the piles of corpses I was helping create. Now im just not looking anymore. I still get a daily deluge of emails from war profiteers looking for somebody willing to be a principal engineer in shithole towns like Huntsville or Abilene


  • That’s where I’m at. I graduated college at 22, got an engineering job right out of college that put me in the top 0.5% of income earners for my age, then did that for 5 years. At no point was I even close to being able to afford a down-payment on even a shitty condo where I lived. Now im unemployed, smoke weed all day, and im basically waiting to either participate in a revolution or run out of money and die. I am strictly unwilling to participate in capitalism anymore, I’ve got enough blood on my hands for a lifetime and nothing to show for it other than than the experience needed to realize how much of what I grew up believing was nothing more than cynical propaganda.



  • Ya know, I had a thought about this yesterday. The sound of fireworks isn’t traumatic for me, but it’s easier to tell people that as the reason I won’t celebrate the 4th rather than telling them I’m deeply disgusted by our actions on both the global and domestic stage and I am ashamed to be an American, not proud. It’s easy to say here on lemmy, but no amount of “being a hero” in the past will prevent the communities veterans tend to be part of from ostracizing you if you question the myth of American greatness.


  • You pretending it’s unprecedented is privileged and incorrect. This the first time since the Japanese internments that white or white adjacent people have regularly suffered illegal search and seizure and been made to feel unsafe in public in the US. The person you responded to brought up plenty of precedent for stuff that’s as bad or almost as bad that has been accepted treatment of non-white people in the states since it became a country. You don’t get to accuse somebody of being disingenuous because they care about the plight of people you seem to be happy to marginalize by claiming and defending that this is unprecedented. The only thing unprecedented about the current state of affairs is that white people are suffering because of it too





  • I’m pro LGBTQ

    against trans-women in women’s sports

    No, you’re not pro lgbtq. You’re a TERF at best

    against consumerism/capitalism, pro socialism. Pro government control on key infrastructure (water, gas, electricity) and better housing and support services. (…) pro taxing the rich

    pro merit success

    ??? Do you understand what any of those words mean? “Pro merit success” directly contradicts each of the social policies you claim to support.

    Pro climate policies

    I’m also against fossil fuel bans

    You’re either lying about one of these or you somehow think we can stop climate change without stopping the most significant cause of climate change?

    Does the complete lack of internal consistency in your worldview not bother you at all? You have no defined political leaning, you have a bunch of emotionally driven contradictory political opinions that you clearly have little to no understanding of.

    Given that description, I’d guess you probably call yourself a centrist and vote conservative.




  • Not the person you’re responding to, but it’s hard as an American to see our country as decadent. The majority of us poors are barely making it paycheck to paycheck and don’t experience anything you might call decadent. For the record I agree with you that on the world stage decadence is a valid adjective for the state of the US, but I don’t know that I’d have that perspective if I never lived outside of the US and never got to see it from the outside looking in